Yesterday was great and officially marks the beginning of my new life. I went before a judge and was granted an order to legally change my name to Jenna as well as ordering my name AND gender to be changed on my driver’s license, birth certificate, and all of my other legal documents. Ironically, I also picked up my associate of applied science degree yesterday, too. Now I have to order another one with the new name on it. No big deal though. I’ve accomplished a lot in the last year. I completed my degree, had a major surgery that needed to b e done, started electrolysis, changed my name and gender legally, paid off my house, re-established my credit, and came clean with my mother about why I had been so miserable for so long. Here’s to hoping 2010 will bring me a great job and bring me closer to feeling complete in every way possible.
January 17, 2010
December 3, 2009
Just When You Thought It Was Safe
I have two tests and two short papers to write and I’ll have my two-year degree in process technology finished. Since I’m not sure when I’ll be able to get a job, I decided to go ahead and register for two more classes in the spring. Once the semester begins I’m going to declare a new major in psychology and begin working on a B.A. in psych. It will probably take me ten years, but I’ll enjoy the courses regardless. I’m really happy to have the first degree out of the way. Once I have a job, a lot of the things I’ve worried and stressed myself over for the last two years will be relieved. It’s so nice to finally have a break, not just from school, but from everything. I’m going to take advantage of the next five weeks to rest, enjoy myself, and take a trip or two on the bikes. It’s been a hell of a year with a lot of wonderful changes in my life. I’m really looking forward to the changes that are still coming over the next few years. One age of craziness is coming to an end and another one is just beginning to take its place. Embrace the lunacy, you might just find something new and exciting that makes a wonderful change in your life, too.
August 13, 2009
Surgery Complete
So my surgery was done yesterday. For those that didn’t know, I’ll fill in the rest of the missing details. I just didn’t want to get too graphic with things, so be forewarned that this WILL make my male readers very uncomfortable. The surgery was a bilateral orchiectomy. In layman’s terms, both of my testicles were removed and are being examined by a pathologist to verify that the masses were not indeed malignant. I’m feeling fine this morning, actually much better than I did after the vasectomy. Almost time for my follow up visit and the return trip home. Will try to update again later.
October 31, 2008
*SNIP SNIP*
Yesterday marked a milestone in my life that I been working toward for the last 13 years. I finally got my vasectomy. A lot of people have asked me why I would have a vasectomy even though I don’t have any kids. Well here is the simplest explanation that I can give. There are some people in this world that should never be allowed to have children for one reason or another. It just so happens that I feel like I belong in that category. I was raised in an abusive environment and have no tolerance for children. I can’t stand being around them or hearing other people talk about them. My foul attitude towards children and and lack of emotional response to hearing about violence toward them led me to my final decision. In other words, it was a proactive decision on my part to prevent any future harm to myself, both mentally and legally, as well as others around me.
I’m sure there are some people who will still think that it was a poor decision, but I spent well over 13 years knowing that this was what was right for me. When asked by a great-aunt 5 years ago when I was going to settle down and have children, my mother just looked at her and shook her head. I think she already knew what I had decided. Whether she had accepted the inevitability of that I don’t know. The question I have to answer now is this. When, if ever, do I tell my mother? I have to wonder if she held out hope that one day I would relent and sire a demon seed. Whatever the case may be, it’s too late now.
After returning home yesterday I felt more tired than usual. That could have been due to not sleeping well Wednesday night, the lack of food for 13 hours, and of course from the procedure itself. But later last night, after having slept for a few hours, I felt a peace of mind come over me that I had been looking for in vain. And now that i have it, I know that I made the right decision.
August 29, 2008
3rd MRI Today
I’m getting tired of these damn things. Every time I have to go in for one, I have to remove all seven of my piercings. And a few of those aren’t so easily removed. Hopefully this is the last one for a while. Then off to the sleep science doctor to get results of that mess. Yay…
June 12, 2008
They Weren’t Kidding
I see why they refer to college as being part time and full time now. I’m only four days into the first week and I’ve spent most of my time in class or at home reading and doing assignments. That’s not to say I’m not enjoying it. This is a welcome change from the last six months of sitting at home doing next to nothing with my time. Now if I can just figure out how to survive and pay the bills for the next 18 months I’ll be in great shape. 
April 25, 2008
Gotta Love My Ex
So I get the text message and the fun begins.
Her – Holy shit! It’s Karl!
Me – Wha?
Her – Him, Justine, the wifey and two kids.
Me – Tell Justine that Jennifer is in town until tomorrow.
Her – Wasn’t talking to them, just laughing at Karl. Who’s Jennifer?
Me – The other girl I got pregnant 2 years after we broke up?
Her – Did she keep it? And why you want Justine to know?
Me – Tubal pregnancy. Justine likes her. Taking her to El Ranchero later (I had been offering to take Miss Genius there all week). You wanna make a baby yet? : )
That was 20 minutes ago and no response. I can’t wait to see where this goes. 
Edit: 10:00p.m. WordPress formatted the post in a funky way so I went back and changed it so that people don’t get lost trying to figure who’s talking about what.
April 15, 2008
It’s Getting Closer
Only 30 days left to come up with tuition money. I’m getting all anxious and stuff in anticipation of going back to school. That’s not a bad thing though. I’m looking forward to it. 
January 12, 2008
New Meds
Lamictal is doing a number on me. Fortunately, it’s a good number. I haven’t had any alcohol since New Year’s Eve and I haven’t had much craving for it. Monday brings up the follow up appointment that should bring another dosage increase and a change in the anti-depressant medication. Hopefully it keeps going smoothly and I can get back into a regular routine.
Once I get a release from the orthopedic specialist, I can start strengthening the injured shoulder. I realized how much I miss going to the gym a few days ago. It was nice to get into a sauna and steam room after a few months. And after five weeks of sitting on my ass, I need the exercise. My energy levels have gone straight downhill. Bleh. I need a nap. 